Well it happened today. I was on the floor of the kitchen feeling the results of holding off a dance with bipolar or the movement of the cyst I have in my brain. Either way It's been building up for a while. Could of been both. All I know is that it's been coming for a while. Yesterday I couldn't get around much. The bed was the only place that felt safe to be in. There was a bit of walking down the back and a visit to the shops down the road. There was even laughter and joking but the bedroom was the safe place. Today however totally blew it for the action in the sheds that I wanted to happen. the body didn't even like the small trip down the road to get Al's lotto. So ok usually things pick up when I do stuff that agrees with me so off to start the burning of the cuttings. Walked to the branches that fell and bought them up to the pile. lit the fire. mmm no go too damp still from the rain. Then it hits.
The numbing of the face. Alert number one. tingling of the hands. 2nd warning. Dizziness coupled with breathlessness. the last of the warnings. Got inside and told Al things where not right, something is wrong. Sitting down the head feels so heavy it has to be put on the floor. Pressure increased around my head and at the temples. Eyes had blurred vision. Speech good but laboured. This has happened a number of times before and always the same. Most times in happens in bed. safe place. This is a consequence that comes from being ignorant of my health for so many years thinking other things and doing stupid things.

Now I have a a growth on the face again. and on the back that needs seeing to. The doc I went to see said that waiting for my regular doc who is back on the 26th august 2014 would be better for she is a surgeon. Yeah true enough.

The world is going nuts ay. so many people are dying for no reasons. Christians in Iraq in the city of Mosul are being treated very badly and are running. Some have been killed in the most horrible ways. Saw photos of a page on facebook. Really sick ay. Once during a bible study in Qld so very long ago an exbrother inlaw told us that he believed all this would happen in our generation. Boy was he wrong. There was a protest in me at the time and I so wanted to say something about it. I didn't say a thing.

Sad ay.
Just touching on excommunication. 
Excommunication is an institutional act of religious censure used to deprive, suspend, or limit membership in a religious community or (as in the present discipline of the Catholic Church) to restrict certain rights within it, such as the reception to Holy Communion. Some Protestants use the term disfellowship instead.
The word excommunication means putting a specific individual or group out of communion. In some religions, excommunication includes spiritual condemnation of the member or group. Excommunication may involve banishment, shunning, and shaming, depending on the religion, the offense that caused excommunication, or the rules or norms of the religious community. The grave act is often remedied by sincere penance, public recantation, sometimes through the Sacrament of Confession, piety, and/or through mortification of the flesh.

That's what the Camira Brethren Church did to me. My crime was having sex with one of the elders sons and getting pregnant. They stated that I knew better. Well yes but so did he. He just got a telling off. Even when I was allowed to come back it wasn't the same and I didn't feel the same about any of them and still don't. I was alone. No family, no friends. 19 and not with it. Maybe I should forgive them. yeah I will have to do that. Banishment, shunning shaming, of a 19 year old young woman who didn't know what was going on with people who where trusted and loved. I was a lost person in a place I really had no business being. The learning curve was huge and damaging in everyway. Fornication. The loneliness I felt before then was finally going away. I didn't think it would of been looked at with so much ugliness. The shame that I was made to feel was overwhelming. Everything in my life that I like loved and was blessed with was taken away from me at one time or another and that was just another one of those times. I should of run further away. I should of left and found a place to live without the hippocrits that was the Camira berthern church. When I look back at it all today I see that lameness in the people. I have not return to them since and will never allow them in as far as I had let them back then. Forgiven they are. But now they are only members of Gods family. My eye's are open.
It's silly but I didn't ever feel a part of them again after that. even after I was allowed back in the fold... Never felt a part of the Morrison family either, even with having 2 children to Brian it was never the same. The marriage we had was a farce. Nothing that was happening then was permanent. Everything had a ending feel to it and yes it did all end. Badly with my leaving the state. not in 25 years have I returned. Says something about the way I felt about it doesn't it. Do I wish to speak to any of them again. well that would depend on them. Would they care to speak with me. Very much doubt that. I am not the same as I was then and I am not the same as when I left.
In Matthew 18:15-17 Jesus says that an offended person should first draw the offender's fault to the offender's attention privately; then, if the offender refuses to listen, bring one or two others, that there may be more than a single witness to the charge; next, if the offender still refuses to listen, bring the matter before the church, and if the offender refuses to listen to the church, treat the offender as "a Gentile and a tax collector".
1 Corinthians 5:1-8 directs the church at Corinth to excommunicate a man for sexual immorality (incest). In 2 Corinthians 2:5-11, the man, having repented and suffered the "punishment by the majority" is restored to the church. Fornication is not the only ground for excommunication, according to the apostle: in 5:11, Paul says, "I am writing to you not to associate with anyone who bears the name of brother if he is guilty of sexual immorality or greed, or is an idolater, reviler, drunkard, or swindler - not even to eat with such a one."
In Romans 16:17, Paul writes to "mark those who cause divisions contrary to the doctrine which ye have learned and avoid them." Also, in 2 John 1:10-11, the writer advises believers that "whosoever transgresseth, and abideth not in the doctrine of Christ, hath not God. He that abideth in the doctrine of Christ, he hath both the Father and the Son. If there come any unto you, and bring not this doctrine, receive him not into your house [οἰκίαν, residence or abode, or "inmates of the house" (family)], neither bid him God speed: for he that biddeth him God speed is partaker of his evil deeds."