Indeed Open your eye's

Where to begin.No malice intended no inviting to riot

I can't quite begin to understand what on earth is going on in the minds of the Russian rebels in the Ukraine. Why did they have to shoot down what was clearly a passenger plane. The tech they have would have been enough to find out if the plane was friend or foe. Looks to me that they wanted to pull in other countries into the game. Oh yes it is a game. A deadly one. Putin and his people have been itching for some sort of major confrontation to back for a while now. Look at the way they have raced to make their presents known in quite a number of areas where they have no business being there, such as the Middle East for one drama filled situation. 

It is clearly going to be a marked point in our long history of wars, police actions and violent take over’s this world has seen. Just like the particular events of the past that brought WW1 and WW2. World war 3 could this be the start of it. We have seen so many people try to get it going for a number of years now. Just a little look into the information available to us on the net and off it will be enough to show anyone who would listen that the pattern of bring the world into a start of war again is being followed.  Then when we think we have peace, ka boom. The earth will be unforgiving. The sky will send a huge rock and the world will be in darkness blotted out and true suffering will begin. The sun will shine again but it won’t be nice.

Isn’t it time to stop all this war and nonsense, to accept each other the way we are and not to push the people into things they don’t want? We all have been blessed with the awesome gift of free will.

This brings me to my children Selena and Chris. Two of the most awesome kids I know, I do have Joe too and he is in the same boat as my other 2 and I have 3 step children who have a place in there too, although they do have their own lives and all do forget my birthday and mother’s day but I guess that is part of what I put out because I don’t do it for my mother so now that is admitted I will have to change that to doing a better job at being a daughter.

Selena and Chris have taught me so much in my life. Thanks to them I had to look into myself and see to the hate and anger I had hidden deep into for too many years to tell. Although I will tell later on. Much later on.  If I hadn’t I would of driven my family to the depths of despair and then pushed them into their living hell. Relentlessly pushing, driving and cause emotional anguish until they died.

I do have to mention that God has had a profound influence in my life since I was very very young.  Finally getting to know more about him in my late teens, going totally stupid until my late 30’s and going through the throws of learning more and having a closer relationship with God through Jesus now at 53. Today I feel much more at ease with what has happened throughout the years and have let go of much, no let go of all but that which is revealed to me and take care of it the moment it is put in my head. That is called cleaning out the rubbish, well for me it’s just that.

Forgiving is the hardest thing anyone can do. Much easier said than done but once it is, the relief is forever and complete. It’s just the art of letting go that takes a toll. Really, no amount of medication, even with consul is going to do anything unless you are willing to forgive yourself and are willing to do the work needed to move on and deal with the rest of your life.