feeling a bit uneasy.

I have a few things that bother me. When I was quite young I became involved with the brethren "church" off shoot from the exclusive kind but grounded well in the word of God. Just way to pious and not as well informed with many matters of dealing with a fractured soul with so much anger.  At that age I was looking for Him. I had 1st hear of God at sunday school. I understood so much more than even I dared to allow myself to think of in case I fall into a moment of play backs a mind that likes to remember things but doesn't have control of the focus or the "pause" control, let alone push the stop button. Many things taught to me way back then have been popping up left right and centre. I knew at once these things where true, but no sooner had I met Him things got in the way. I was going the wrong way. Lost again. Wasn't where I was meant to be. Too eager to please. Didn't have the safety of a normal family back ground. Too many wrong choices taken too deeply to see to far forward. Another blow to a person who so needed to be picked up by some Godly man who was made to deal with who I am today. It ain't easy. Trust me. 21 years of hanging on and trying to keep things in the we'll talk about that later mode. Doesn't sound right I know but I have skirted around the subject of marriage for like since Brian Morrison. Met him at 17/18. Married rather quickly after stuff happened. Man alive let no man use the word responsibly around a bloke who was having his own mind opening up to a whole new world that he didn't want to stop cause we slip up once. Gave him his choice and meant it. Just have to make sure the baby and I are well cared for. No worries good bye. But he kept coming back. !!!!! What to you say to him, like thats your husband right promises in front all. No, in the end he chose to do the right thing...... Still he was given the way out front and an open door right up to the day Selena was Born. After that he knew what it meant. I did not make it easy. I was a manic and didn't know it. well thats it the fingers are getting not responding to the signals from the brain so ooooo  o oo

I have always said and have always know that my sons ex wife and her mother and her sister where not to be trusted. Now it has come to pass, they have made my son to be the bad guy when it is them who have used and abused their way where ever they go. I am between 2 choices, do I tell DCP everything I know about them which isn't that good. Or do I sit on my hands. One of them is a J W. Yeah you have to watch your back with them too. They oooooo hang on just got a cool idea. Get back to you.

How I got to here.

wow what a life I have had, so knowing that others have had far worse a life but I will attempt to brush the surface.
1964 was the year that my family arrived in Australia. In July. some time just before or just after my birthday which is the 18th. I was 3 that year. Because my mother forgot the papers that said that we where all up to date with our needles some woman decided that we had to be done again and we spent hours at the Sydney airport with us 2 little ones in nappies. I knew what the toilet was by then. To this day I still am unsure if the extra junk from the extra needles had done something to us. We three young ones didn't have a very healthy time of it the first few years here. Anyway we where then sent to the immigration camp in NSW, not Skyville the other one where they are having huge troubles now. It was quite a while before we left and moved into a house that was just built. 10 kids, 3 bedrooms outside toilet, 2 adults and a huge back yard.
Much happened while we where there, not much of it was great or nice. Some of it was totally agreeable and totally laughable today.
7 years at that house, then QLD, a few stories to make the mouth drop there.There we lived in Nambour. After about 2 years we moved again, moved into a place in the inner suburbs of Brisbane. Then we moved to Pannawonica, wow man that was wow. Then back to Qld to a area called Darra. Just as I was getting settled and actually happy we moved to WA, Newman. Hated it from the start, ran away from it, made to go back. The year I turn 16 my parents took me to my sisters in Cairns. I stayed at Jeane's 1st but she didn't like be there so I moved to Joyce's. By the time I was 17 I had moved into my own flat in Cairns. By the end of that year I had moved to my brother Rudy's house in Redbank near Brisbane. Met God. It was a whirlwind that took me so far away from what I was at that time. Which I have to say wasn't something I had a handle on then.
After a while Rudy wanted to go to a church he had heard about that met under a house in Camira. Brethren based group. Man alive what a cruel but informative 10 years was spent in their company. By the end of those years I had ended up at a Assemblies of God church in Mt Gravatt. Then things went out of control and I had to leave and moved 2 kids and all I could carry on the train I moved to my sister's place in Beckenham, then to my own house in Lynwood. the Victoria Park then Goomalling and now here. Oh also spent some time in the Bunbury region.
Many ups and downs and lots of crazy shit going down left right and centre. There are so many stories about my time here on this earth and many good lesson's among the sad lessons. Turning away from God only to just hang on by the most slimmest of threads.
The eye's have seen such lows that it floored me for years, these same eye's have seen such highs that have lighten the load and made the mind understand that God was/is and will forever be the only answer.
Sure things have always been hard going and so many issues that have either been ignored or pushed aside for other people. Now at last I too have come to place where I must be still. Rest and fix the body issues, love, give, pray and be the one who God had always meant me to be. Ha now that a statement worth saying.

What an amazing year it has been so far. we have so many earth issues going on. Not since the world began has there been so many volcano's spluttering into action, tectonic plates movements, flooding in places that hasn't seen one since the middle ages. Full on wind events that have totally wiped out small towns and entering noted cities with destruction. It's like the northern hemisphere has totally lost grip and is rapidly making it's own way to a new landscape.
We've have also seen the rise of a extreme Muslim group called the Islamic state. Brutally insane people who kill children, women, men and their animals too I had read on one report. Cutting off peoples heads then parading around with the heads and allowing their own children to be pictured with them. I am sure that the picture that have surfaced on Youtube are not the only ones. Still it is crazy to believe that Islam is a peaceful thing when they too fight among themselves as well as the rest of the world. I have not seen anyone stand and get all in your face about jokes and less than nice remarks about Jesus Christ. This is cause we know he hears and will deal with any who makes such remarks in his time. Yes I have seen people stand up and say that people ought not say stupid things about Him but we do not react violently. No point. Russia is going nuts, again. the middle eastern countries also are becoming a great concern but in the bible it does say that this will happen. I believe that the bible is right and the end days are now here. Too many events that had been written down once upon a time are now going down in fast succession.
It is written in the bible that we have to keep an eye on the sky's, well there has been good reason to do so of late. Many unforeseen asteroids have been noted with less that a week before it passes earth with one recently to comets coming in close. Who needs wars when we have a fair amount of danger coming from places above our heads.
Even our own people are going down like flys in a furnace. Every 4 seconds someone ends their life. The anger in the wider community has skyrocketed. Father against son, mother verses daughter, brothers verse sister etc etc etc. That too is in the bible. The young are seeing things that they ought not to be shown. Morals are not being adhered to at all. Promises are not kept, abuse at all levels are at an all time high. It's heartbreaking.

I have been through and seen too much from a very young age. Had abuse thrown at me from my siblings and parents, even strangers, friends of the family and my own husband. For the last 20 years I have been trying to keep my distance from those things and as of today have got it right to a degree. I'm back with the one true constant in my life which has been God. Now with his help I have come to understand that I need to be who I am to be there for those whom God wants me to go to.
It hasn't stopped though, the learning but it's much more accepted by my heart to remain open to the call, when it comes to help those who need me.

Apart from that all ok.

Today is the 25th August 2014.
Today I saw what happens to someone who isn't following the course that has been set by God for them yet they fight it and allow themselves to be run over by the devil.

Jenny Weston has been a sad person for such a long time she has forgotten what she is here for and it isn't to have a second change at parenting with our grandchildren. Her " illness " has to be "fixed" 1st then she can only be grandma. Her body will soon show the price one pays to be on drugs that you don't really need. Ashe will be a long time in healing and she needs to know the kids are good. Even though they are not with her. Chris will do very well and look after his children well. He needs his own place and his independence. 

All the promises and understandings that we had spoken about to keep the kids out of harms way has again not been allowed. Not been kept to. It is so sad to have to go through the motions. Just sad.

Robin’s gift could be likened to fastest thoroughbred race-horse on earth. It had unbeatable endurance, nimbleness, and a huge heart. However, it had never been fully trained. Sometimes Robin would ride it like a kayaker tearing down white-water, skimming on the edge of control. We would marvel at his courage, his daring, and his brilliance. But at other times, the horse went where he wanted, and Robin could only hang on for dear life.
In the final analysis, what failed Robin was his greatest gift---his imagination. Clutching the horse he could no longer think of a single thing to do to change his life or make himself feel better, and he stepped off the edge of the saddle. Had the horse been trained, it might have reminded him that there is always something we can do. We can take a walk until the feeling passes. We can find someone else suffering and help them, taking the attention off our own. Or, finally, we can learn to muster our courage and simply sit still with what we are thinking are insoluble problems, becoming as intimate with them as we can, facing them until we get over our fear. They may even be insoluble, but that does not mean that there is nothing we can do.
Our great-hearted friend will be back as the rain, as the cry of a Raven as the wind. He, you and I have never for one moment not been a part of all it. But we would be doing his life and memory a dis-service if we did not extract some wisdom from his choice, which, if we ponder deeply enough, will turn out to be his last gift. He would beg us to pay attention if he could.

Peter Coyote

Robin William’s Last Gift
Robin and I were friends. Not intimate, because he was very shy when he was not performing. Still, I spent many birthdays and holidays at his home with Marsha and the children, and he showed up at my 70th birthday to say “Hello” and wound up mesmerizing my relatives with a fifteen minute set that pulverized the audience.
When I heard that he had died, I put my own sorrow aside for a later time. I’m a Zen Buddhist priest and my vows instruct me to try to help others. So this little letter is meant in that spirit.
Normally when you are gifted with a huge talent of some kind, it’s like having a magnificent bicep. People will say, “Wow, that’s fantastic” and they tell you, truthfully, that it can change your life, take you to unimaginable realms. It can and often does. The Zen perspective is a little different. We might say, “Well, that’s a great bicep, you don’t have to do anything to it. Let’s work at bringing the rest of your body up to that level.”
Robin’s gift could be likened to fastest thoroughbred race-horse on earth. It had unbeatable endurance, nimbleness, and a huge heart. However, it had never been fully trained. Sometimes Robin would ride it like a kayaker tearing down white-water, skimming on the edge of control. We would marvel at his courage, his daring, and his brilliance. But at other times, the horse went where he wanted, and Robin could only hang on for dear life.
In the final analysis, what failed Robin was his greatest gift---his imagination. Clutching the horse he could no longer think of a single thing to do to change his life or make himself feel better, and he stepped off the edge of the saddle. Had the horse been trained, it might have reminded him that there is always something we can do. We can take a walk until the feeling passes. We can find someone else suffering and help them, taking the attention off our own. Or, finally, we can learn to muster our courage and simply sit still with what we are thinking are insoluble problems, becoming as intimate with them as we can, facing them until we get over our fear. They may even be insoluble, but that does not mean that there is nothing we can do.
Our great-hearted friend will be back as the rain, as the cry of a Raven as the wind. He, you and I have never for one moment not been a part of all it. But we would be doing his life and memory a dis-service if we did not extract some wisdom from his choice, which, if we ponder deeply enough, will turn out to be his last gift. He would beg us to pay attention if he could.

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Today I learnt of the death of the actor Robin Williams, he took his own life. He suffered from bipolar brought on by drugs and drink. This has shocked me to the core. Very sad, so sad indeed
After having most of the day to get this into the real area of my mind I had gone of to meet my neighbour's lady love Lou. nice woman.
Then I returned to my house and tried to settle.

Now at 12 21 am, I am watching a Four corners programme on child abuse with in the church of Catholics.
I have also been keeping a close watch on other people's that have pursued their abusers to court and getting it into the media for the public to know of the horror they had been through and the effects on their lives.
Well I too have a case that could very well be put out there to get my brother Simon to come to grips with what he has done to me and four other of my siblings and I could really get it happening and expose him to everyone he has ever known, and finally get to understand why we don't hear from his daughter Rachael. I would very much like to know what she remembers from her past with her father.
Of course this will open up many old wounds within the family but I've done that before and everytime I have I had been shut out from the family and told to shut up. Lost count of how many times I've been thrown away. My last effort had caused so much turmoil that I haven't seen the family in total for 8 years now. well since the death of my father which  is what... 6 years this year. Harlan was not very old when he pasted away and Harlan is 6 this year.
The effects of the abuse I had received from Simon, my mother my brother and my sisters varies. Two of my sisters have tried very hard to help me over the years and one of my brother has been so much help he will always be in my heart and will never be forgotten.
I didn't have a very good way of handling the boy issue in my life, even today with Alan I find it going from hard to oh so easy back to hard. Dealing with my son's is always a hard one for I say things that unnerves them from time to time. I did horror things to my Selena and Chris in the beginning but tried to get it right but found that I was off in some fairy land most of the time and didn't quite get it right. I didn't know about the effects of child abuse, nor how far it gets into the mind. With Joe I had tried to be a better person and was on hard anti-psychotic drugs to stop me from going into la la mode and making stupid decisions. Not that it help there either, also I had to deal with my past at the same time so it was more than likely the hardest part of my life. 

Simon sexually abuse me. made me touch his dick and suck it. I remember his smell and most of the time would go off into some dream world that I wouldn't come out of for ;quite a while. night time was worse.
The same with two other brothers R stopped, but AR didn't stop until I was 11. My sisters Joyce and Jane always had nasty things to say about me and teased me recklessly about the way I walked talked. Had bigger boobs than them at a such a young age and they where teenagers. Joyce once bashed the daylights out of me for an act she caught me and my brother Robert in. I was only doing what I was taught was being nice to him. he didn't know what was going on them he is only one year younger than I. Apart from my own family I had to deal with R's friends one of whom would root me when he had the chance. My mother was pretty wow. When she hit she hit hard and most of the time is was with her hand. I also remember my fathers slaps and one time a punch to the face when I was a teenager.( I was really drunk) After that he never hit me again, the look I must of given him must of been something. My mother on the other hand didn't stop until I ran away. That last time she hit me was when I was late after being sexually abuse my George McGeivren in Newman. that's a story. i GOT IN THE HOUSE AND SMELLED OF HIM AND SHE WENT CRAZY. SHE SLAPPED KICKED scratched, punched, pulled my hair. Dad had to pull her off me. I had bloody scratch marks from my ear on my right side to my chest. I had bruises on my legs and my ribs  hurt, my scalp was lucky to have some hair left. Man it's a pity she didn't fight for me like that when her sons did stuff to me. When the bullies at school tore me apart with there kicks and pushing and ignoring, I spend most of my primary school years alone. sitting in a area where teachers could see me.  I never knew how to make a nice friend then. I do now because of meeting God. I didn't know how to act in front of many people. It has taken many years to accept that I am a fairly nice person. I have very  high standards of what a family ought to be but don't actually have it myself. One thing that bothers me though is why no one wants to marry me. No one. Not even Al. He says he does and he hasn't ruled it out but that to me is a cop out and at 53 and greying I'm over waiting. I had waited oh so very long to have someone whom I loved and loved me and lives with me to make that important step and get it done and not wait of the PERFECT time. there is never a perfect time.HUmans ain't got the knowledge of perfection. laughing..
All I want now is to have a nice solar powered air-conditioned shed with a bedroom and working area for me out the back of our house in Gingin. Kitchen and all. Just want to be a happy little surprise for my children to come visit, grandees to come stay, my friends to come visit, my life to be easier to cope with and to have a place to cry or go wild in when I need the space. I would love to have a decent relationship with Trish again and Rudy. I want a love filled relationship with my children Selena and Chris again and I just want to wind down into old age trying to be the best I can. I'm a keeper ay. I know things that can help people. I can do things that will wow most. I'm happy and stable. Even though my bipolar makes me go up and down everyday I'm still a good person. laughing. Yes I do sleep a fair bit during the day cause night times are hard to let myself go into a deep sleep. Yes I am having health issues at the moment but who isn't! Hey I'm alright ok.


Going after Simon would be a easy deal if my siblings agreed to stand by me. But there is selfishness there that I can't get through or a fear of losing what they have. It would be great to have their support when I tell him of the effects of his actions have reverberated through out the whole family and the deep pains that have been hard to get to grips with and still today stop me for one to get closer to my blood. Even to releasing my all to Al has been a difficult task. I still haven't. At 53 I am still locked out. Just have to find a skeleton key won't I. Sneak in ay. laughing again.
There has only ever been one member of my family who has made a huge atonement. For him I more grateful than he will ever know.


God bless , Eye's open, watch the sky Jesus is coming.

Well it happened today. I was on the floor of the kitchen feeling the results of holding off a dance with bipolar or the movement of the cyst I have in my brain. Either way It's been building up for a while. Could of been both. All I know is that it's been coming for a while. Yesterday I couldn't get around much. The bed was the only place that felt safe to be in. There was a bit of walking down the back and a visit to the shops down the road. There was even laughter and joking but the bedroom was the safe place. Today however totally blew it for the action in the sheds that I wanted to happen. the body didn't even like the small trip down the road to get Al's lotto. So ok usually things pick up when I do stuff that agrees with me so off to start the burning of the cuttings. Walked to the branches that fell and bought them up to the pile. lit the fire. mmm no go too damp still from the rain. Then it hits.
The numbing of the face. Alert number one. tingling of the hands. 2nd warning. Dizziness coupled with breathlessness. the last of the warnings. Got inside and told Al things where not right, something is wrong. Sitting down the head feels so heavy it has to be put on the floor. Pressure increased around my head and at the temples. Eyes had blurred vision. Speech good but laboured. This has happened a number of times before and always the same. Most times in happens in bed. safe place. This is a consequence that comes from being ignorant of my health for so many years thinking other things and doing stupid things.

Now I have a a growth on the face again. and on the back that needs seeing to. The doc I went to see said that waiting for my regular doc who is back on the 26th august 2014 would be better for she is a surgeon. Yeah true enough.

The world is going nuts ay. so many people are dying for no reasons. Christians in Iraq in the city of Mosul are being treated very badly and are running. Some have been killed in the most horrible ways. Saw photos of a page on facebook. Really sick ay. Once during a bible study in Qld so very long ago an exbrother inlaw told us that he believed all this would happen in our generation. Boy was he wrong. There was a protest in me at the time and I so wanted to say something about it. I didn't say a thing.

Sad ay.
Just touching on excommunication. 
Excommunication is an institutional act of religious censure used to deprive, suspend, or limit membership in a religious community or (as in the present discipline of the Catholic Church) to restrict certain rights within it, such as the reception to Holy Communion. Some Protestants use the term disfellowship instead.
The word excommunication means putting a specific individual or group out of communion. In some religions, excommunication includes spiritual condemnation of the member or group. Excommunication may involve banishment, shunning, and shaming, depending on the religion, the offense that caused excommunication, or the rules or norms of the religious community. The grave act is often remedied by sincere penance, public recantation, sometimes through the Sacrament of Confession, piety, and/or through mortification of the flesh.

That's what the Camira Brethren Church did to me. My crime was having sex with one of the elders sons and getting pregnant. They stated that I knew better. Well yes but so did he. He just got a telling off. Even when I was allowed to come back it wasn't the same and I didn't feel the same about any of them and still don't. I was alone. No family, no friends. 19 and not with it. Maybe I should forgive them. yeah I will have to do that. Banishment, shunning shaming, of a 19 year old young woman who didn't know what was going on with people who where trusted and loved. I was a lost person in a place I really had no business being. The learning curve was huge and damaging in everyway. Fornication. The loneliness I felt before then was finally going away. I didn't think it would of been looked at with so much ugliness. The shame that I was made to feel was overwhelming. Everything in my life that I like loved and was blessed with was taken away from me at one time or another and that was just another one of those times. I should of run further away. I should of left and found a place to live without the hippocrits that was the Camira berthern church. When I look back at it all today I see that lameness in the people. I have not return to them since and will never allow them in as far as I had let them back then. Forgiven they are. But now they are only members of Gods family. My eye's are open.
It's silly but I didn't ever feel a part of them again after that. even after I was allowed back in the fold... Never felt a part of the Morrison family either, even with having 2 children to Brian it was never the same. The marriage we had was a farce. Nothing that was happening then was permanent. Everything had a ending feel to it and yes it did all end. Badly with my leaving the state. not in 25 years have I returned. Says something about the way I felt about it doesn't it. Do I wish to speak to any of them again. well that would depend on them. Would they care to speak with me. Very much doubt that. I am not the same as I was then and I am not the same as when I left.
In Matthew 18:15-17 Jesus says that an offended person should first draw the offender's fault to the offender's attention privately; then, if the offender refuses to listen, bring one or two others, that there may be more than a single witness to the charge; next, if the offender still refuses to listen, bring the matter before the church, and if the offender refuses to listen to the church, treat the offender as "a Gentile and a tax collector".
1 Corinthians 5:1-8 directs the church at Corinth to excommunicate a man for sexual immorality (incest). In 2 Corinthians 2:5-11, the man, having repented and suffered the "punishment by the majority" is restored to the church. Fornication is not the only ground for excommunication, according to the apostle: in 5:11, Paul says, "I am writing to you not to associate with anyone who bears the name of brother if he is guilty of sexual immorality or greed, or is an idolater, reviler, drunkard, or swindler - not even to eat with such a one."
In Romans 16:17, Paul writes to "mark those who cause divisions contrary to the doctrine which ye have learned and avoid them." Also, in 2 John 1:10-11, the writer advises believers that "whosoever transgresseth, and abideth not in the doctrine of Christ, hath not God. He that abideth in the doctrine of Christ, he hath both the Father and the Son. If there come any unto you, and bring not this doctrine, receive him not into your house [οἰκίαν, residence or abode, or "inmates of the house" (family)], neither bid him God speed: for he that biddeth him God speed is partaker of his evil deeds."

Indeed Open your eye's

Where to begin.No malice intended no inviting to riot

I can't quite begin to understand what on earth is going on in the minds of the Russian rebels in the Ukraine. Why did they have to shoot down what was clearly a passenger plane. The tech they have would have been enough to find out if the plane was friend or foe. Looks to me that they wanted to pull in other countries into the game. Oh yes it is a game. A deadly one. Putin and his people have been itching for some sort of major confrontation to back for a while now. Look at the way they have raced to make their presents known in quite a number of areas where they have no business being there, such as the Middle East for one drama filled situation. 

It is clearly going to be a marked point in our long history of wars, police actions and violent take over’s this world has seen. Just like the particular events of the past that brought WW1 and WW2. World war 3 could this be the start of it. We have seen so many people try to get it going for a number of years now. Just a little look into the information available to us on the net and off it will be enough to show anyone who would listen that the pattern of bring the world into a start of war again is being followed.  Then when we think we have peace, ka boom. The earth will be unforgiving. The sky will send a huge rock and the world will be in darkness blotted out and true suffering will begin. The sun will shine again but it won’t be nice.

Isn’t it time to stop all this war and nonsense, to accept each other the way we are and not to push the people into things they don’t want? We all have been blessed with the awesome gift of free will.

This brings me to my children Selena and Chris. Two of the most awesome kids I know, I do have Joe too and he is in the same boat as my other 2 and I have 3 step children who have a place in there too, although they do have their own lives and all do forget my birthday and mother’s day but I guess that is part of what I put out because I don’t do it for my mother so now that is admitted I will have to change that to doing a better job at being a daughter.

Selena and Chris have taught me so much in my life. Thanks to them I had to look into myself and see to the hate and anger I had hidden deep into for too many years to tell. Although I will tell later on. Much later on.  If I hadn’t I would of driven my family to the depths of despair and then pushed them into their living hell. Relentlessly pushing, driving and cause emotional anguish until they died.

I do have to mention that God has had a profound influence in my life since I was very very young.  Finally getting to know more about him in my late teens, going totally stupid until my late 30’s and going through the throws of learning more and having a closer relationship with God through Jesus now at 53. Today I feel much more at ease with what has happened throughout the years and have let go of much, no let go of all but that which is revealed to me and take care of it the moment it is put in my head. That is called cleaning out the rubbish, well for me it’s just that.

Forgiving is the hardest thing anyone can do. Much easier said than done but once it is, the relief is forever and complete. It’s just the art of letting go that takes a toll. Really, no amount of medication, even with consul is going to do anything unless you are willing to forgive yourself and are willing to do the work needed to move on and deal with the rest of your life.

Wow what a crazy week ay. So many people are suffering and there really is nothing we can do to stop it. No matter how had we try nothing is going to happen to our satisfaction. Sadly this is just going to have to run it's course. I am truly gob smacked by the actions of the Russian rebels in the Ukraine. What are they thinking hey. They are acting like they have rights to the bodies and belongings of the dead. It seems that they are in the mind frame that the plane is a causality of war and the "spoils " are theirs to do with as they please. Doesn't fair well for them in this modern day nor does it makes us think better of Russia's govt. What a mad sad event. 
I think that we are coming into a high point of violence with extremes being the in word. Truly there is no excuse for this type of behaviour.  Sadly we see the very same attitudes in our country as well. No longer are we safe in our houses, streets or shops. Children, the elderly, young men and women, people going about their day are all subject to the all too easy mind snap that leads to hurtful drama.  Not a day goes by that we don't see the pain and anguish in those who need it the least. Rage is the buzz around the world. We really got to try more to be kinder to each other. Cool the blood. THINK about the after effects on others. Be accountable for all that we do, say and write. 

On a totally different note we have to consider the prophesies. On youtube I watch a channel called 9nania. Takes a bit to get into at first but once you start to match up what she is saying and look into the research your self you begin to see how close we are to the rapture. A top event in any born again persons life. That is spiritual ay, not like one of those goofy new wave ritual rebirths. Man when I saw one doco that actually showed someone going through some sort of physical "rebirth" I nearly fell off my chair laughing. It was during a time where everyone was looking for something to change themselves and a need to start again. Wow, I reckon LSD was in the mix somewhere in that doco ay. Totally off their faces and open to suggestion to the max. It is so easy to manipulate someones mind into doing anything with enough drugs. Same with a child but we won't go there today.
All the other times we have had great knowledgeable people, church kooks and those who though they had second sight talk about the end of the world etc etc etc in the past have all failed and have disappeared into the ground or have return to normal (!! yeah ok their normal)    To be honest I haven't really got into the "end of the world thing" before and I'm not into it now. It's going to be quite some time before the sun ( our star) will reach the end of it's life. I do however get right into what the bible says is on it's way. Yes and I quote        " Something wicked this way comes.." Many say that it is just natural events that have happen before. Yep that is true. Why though? Why do these thing happen? What is behind it? The proof is out there for you if you have a mind to rummage through all the writings from many cultures and many places by people who have different ways of communicating their thoughts across to the general population. Yes it is a great idea to do it all for your self too. Alas time waits for no one. ( Catchy saying that. ) Either way most end up knowing that the time is near for the coming of Jesus to take his people to a safe place while he and God allow the devil his due. It has to happen. It's been fore told over and over by so many and heard by so few.
It isn't rocket science ay. ( I've always wanted to write that )  For anyone to be taken by Jesus to a safe home is easy and forever. Of course you change your way after but not to the extent many believe. You are compelled too. Not by force either. It doesn't work that way. All God wants for us to do is to accept what his son did for us so the we could have open line to him. The Jewish nation didn't accept this. They wanted to have more control I guess. I'm not priest nor a scholar so I am not in a possy to chat it up about that. Yeah it isn't a easy life for many in countries that have no tolerance for anyone different in their thinking or don't believe that which they do. Sad but true. And yes I do know of how there are many who like to scoff and make fun of people who believe in God. Their lose ay. So in this time of  shake down events with wars and rumour of wars, the ground beneath us about to do spectacular movements and the coming threats of huge meteors/ asteroids hits one really has to consider weather we are right with our maker. Oh and here's something, when it is all quite and the world is at peace you better look up and see what coming. Aw man 2:17 am. slap on my head and rolling my eye's.
 

interesting truth.

I know it's a preaching channel but it's the truth ay.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kMzPj649aeo.

Hey I've been back tracking this Mexican Border issue and have come up with a radical thing Guatemala, Nicaragua, Managua, Costa Rica, Panama, Colombia Ecuador and Venezuela are all in a very watery zoned part of the world. North and South America are the only places high enough to to be safe. 
Looking at the world data on rising sea levels and the predictions of ground move from vulcanises monitoring the area for years and have studied the data for years know have a volcano is going the blow, they know the signd very well. Couple this with the earthquake researchers findings and maybe some one has listened, well many, and are now moving with this in mind and maybe according to what the scientists have found have briefed the people and they are going with what ever they have knowing that they do not have time to be complaisant because they know what it is like when shit hits the fan. Thus the Govt's of said countries have made deals with Usa and the inner countries of south America to avoid the coming water event, coupled with the ground going crazy underneath them and volcano's going for broke. Hmm this then puts eye's towards Yellowstone National Park. The action over there really isn't something to bring children to neither but which do you choose. Which can you cope with.  I'm looking at this from a straight up view with honesty. Also when you believe what the bible teaches you do tend to take notice of what scientists say for they correspond. 
http://edition.cnn.com/2013/08/01/us/yellowstone-geyser/
http://www.wbtw.com/story/25989779/hot-spot-yellowstone-road-melts-sites-closed
http://www.bbc.com/news/science-environment-25598050
Many more Ref, online just look it up.
 https://maps.google.com/maps/ms?ie=UTF8&t=m&source=embed&oe=UTF8&msa=0&msid=200648231617316941382.0004ebdf2e6b9b741a573&dg=feature just to give a another look at the lay of the land. Keep this site handy to help you with my next subject/

Then there is the Middle East shake downs.  Headline reads:

Israeli Ground War Near As 100,000 Civilians Advised To Flee.

http://edition.cnn.com/2014/07/11/world/meast/mideast-tensions/

This one says much. I would recommend watching this one.: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCEy1lbLSjA

http://www.cbsnews.com/videos/eye-opener-violence-between-israel-and-hamas-forces-spreads/

Crazy shit going down here. Also told in the bible. Everything that is happening now in this area is history in the making. So many refs in the bible about this one in Revelations but it's best to get a preacher who is into that book to explain it to you better.  

 

On our front... I like what Clive Palmer is up to. I watching this fella. and the people he has set onto the parliament floor. YYEEAH BABY.

Keeping watch. It's looking like we have a fight looming up here. Better start getting gardens ready with food plants and shelter from the coming blast from the sun in summer.

 

Wow there is something biblical going on in the world isn't there. 
Israel is under attack, again and are fighting back again. There is war and rumours of war with all sorts of people, in and around the middle eastern area. 442 missiles in only a couple of hours. Hamas is being bombed. Gaza is being bombed. 
Isis, is going nut and those men are merciless. Vicious in every way and killing innocents young and old who won't bow to them.  Yemen has been captured by them and they are going for Mosul in Iraq. These people where also for told in the bible too. The Sunni rebels are massing again. Need the watch.

Mean while in America, things are getting out of hand in the environment as well as the government. The borders between the USA and Mexico is more or less gone. With the Govt wanting to reclassify legal immigrants as refuges which isn't going down with the population of USA. 

Oh and now the English are now skittish about their Internet.

Storms that that wipe out towns and cities. Earthquakes in place that hasn't had a hint of them in millions of years. Sink holes are appearing in many places with no mining histories in the area. Volcanoes are also getting ready to blow or have done. The "ring of Fire" has not been this active during human history. 

See what I believe is that everything that is happening now has been told to us through the bible many times over and it warns us, saying that when we see these things happening that Jesus is coming back to collect all those who believe in him and have accepted him as their saviour, so that we don't have to go through what is about to fall upon this planet of ours. Am I preaching? MMM good question. Most times I like to think that I'm just telling it like it is. Which has been my way for a long long time now. Why I believe in God is a story and a half. I have always had some sort of thing with God. since little but it really came to a huge kapow in my head when I was told I had Bipolar. That wasn't until I was 38. All my life I had felt different to anyone around me. That's a symptom, well one of them. Once I did I had to get it seen to. Took a long long time and many medications that have damaged my body beyond repair. I just think that it is important for everyone to look at who they are and to ensure that you are right with God. 
Listening to the news and watching videos. looking up stories to make sure it's truth among other things have been something that has made me more aware of what is going on out there. It's getting outrageous. Too many people are suffering from avoidable issues. Crime weather it be violent or soft is so not acceptable. We know that it will only get worse. I just hope that we are all prepare for what ever comes upon us as things unfold before our very eyes. To quote  Pastor Paul Begley Are you serious, wwhhhaatttt!!! Something BIBLICAL is going on.
 

Ok, this is my first go at doing a blog. Al has been telling me about this type of thing for awhile and today I have been moved to do it. At long last. So the thing I want to get across to anyone who reads this is that you are going to read that which bothers me most. Inspires me to create crafts and works of art and the oh so Marcy opinions that will cause remarks or funny sounds that the mouth can make went the mind had read something and all you can do is make a silly sound. Above all these are my words and mine alone and I will accept any remarks with grace and answer back with respect. I don't like swearing at the best of times so lay off it ok. Lets keep this easy. 

Today is the 2/07/2014. Started off with a slow coming into the awake world. Hearing the rain and loving the feel of my bed and the warmth. Not wanting to get up as usual ha. Since getting off the hard anti psychotic drugs a couple of years ago it has been a slow getting use to the emotions and rage again. Controlling the way my reactions spill from the mouth. I no longer feel guilt when waking up late in the day. Use to grill myself into a moody rat bag, not recommended when you have little ones to care for. I don't now of course thank you God that they have grown. I still have guilt about the way it all was way back when. I don't stress over it but like I use to. Just keep moving into the day and see what I have to do and hope the mind doesn't convince the body it's all too hard.. huge grin. 

So Joe says not to push him cause known it is what he's like when he is pushed. MM the mind says, over it off I go. Pay my rego, raining, thinking of Joe and go to pick him up, bloody soft ay. Anyway I see him on the corner of our street and pick him up cutting off a person coming to the intersection. They did have lots of room but cause the view was quite clear. Joe jumps in and I hear a thanks Mum. mmm chuffed. Take him to his appointment with the dreaded Max employment. What a laugh. so while there I sit inside the CRC and play with my ipad. Then the big ears hear a tourist/backpacker try to book a bus to Perth. Not a easy thing around 12ish in Gingin. In fact it would be one of those right time things. Looking over at the fellow I see that one of his legs has no hair on the bottom part of his lower left leg. Asked him what the deal was and he said he hurt his ankle during a soccer game and strapped it up. When he removed the tape much hair came with it. so he shaved it all off. Told him he could of shave the other leg to match and send a pic back home to how how much he had fitted in with Aussie culture and the mad way most Aussie do for a laugh. After a little more joking and having a laugh at his expense he wasn't getting anywhere fast with booking the bus and had to wait at the bus stop with the right money to get to Perth. Early on in the day I had read a passage in the bible about entertaining strangers for some have been with angels without knowing. While playing with my ipad again it came to me that I ought to give these guys a lift to Midland as Joe/ myself where going there anyway and it wasn't a huge detour at all. So I offered and they accepted, Tim the German and Alex the Italian ( he sounded just like Valentino Rossi so it was fun. Brought them chips from Steve's gull and off went to Midland. Joe was happy and we had lively chat and good giggles all the way in. Gave them warning about the mossy germs going around up north and telling them to keep an eye on their stuff. You know all the things you tell people to watch out for so they have a good time without loss. Signed the Aussie flag Alex had and off to do our thing. Awesome. 

After being pushed to hurry by Joe which he denies then puts his arm around me to help me keep pace with him!!!! We get things done and after more hooning around we get petrol and go home. Totally worn out I sit down to a little food and my friend rings. It's about a meeting about that Patrick Comeagain fellow, a serial rapists released into our area even though many did not want him out the govt. let him out. He raped a nine year old lass and 40 other people including 2 males and only served time for 2. Even his shrink didn't think he should be out. so I put this out on facebook ::

 Huge important  Bindoon, Gingin, surrounds.
The meeting about Patrick Comeagain has been changed to the Chinkabee Complex at the same time of 7.oopm Please inform all you can this change has been in the last hour.... I sent it to all the tv stations and everyone I could to get it out there. Spent 3 hours getting it into facebook pages that I knew had kids and a wide friends circle. Pushed out as far as I could. Even invited someone who suggested he would take care of it, if you know what I mean. I feel awful about that now. I am sorry I did that. Nothing much I can do about that now. I'll have to pray about that. All this just means things are getting quite hairy out there for good people. It's getting hard to ignore the goings on in our state. The govt isn't doing the work the people voted them in for and all we are getting is more problems and less solutions that work for the greater good. There are too many strings left untied to allow this to go on any further without conditions that infringe on our rights to have a safe place to live in. Too many bad people are being let off too soon with stupid conditions that can be got around  to easily. There is a boot camp in the out back that these type ought to be sent to. Not here 500 mts from a road that local buses use as pick up and drop off points for school kids. We have a hard enough time keeping watch over our kids as it is without more hazards. It's all going mad man. Just all going mad. The time has come to allow normal people with good healthy ideas to deal with the prison system and let the prison be what they are suppose to be. Places of correction.  Too much is given to the those who are in prison than to those who they have hurt. That will have to change. I don't see that happening though. What I know is that it will only become worse. Sad but true. God is coming. Jesus is on his way. woe to those who are not ready. 12.00 am 3/07/2014, a new day begins.