Well it happened today. I was on the floor of the kitchen feeling the results of holding off a dance with bipolar or the movement of the cyst I have in my brain. Either way It's been building up for a while. Could of been both. All I know is that it's been coming for a while. Yesterday I couldn't get around much. The bed was the only place that felt safe to be in. There was a bit of walking down the back and a visit to the shops down the road. There was even laughter and joking but the bedroom was the safe place. Today however totally blew it for the action in the sheds that I wanted to happen. the body didn't even like the small trip down the road to get Al's lotto. So ok usually things pick up when I do stuff that agrees with me so off to start the burning of the cuttings. Walked to the branches that fell and bought them up to the pile. lit the fire. mmm no go too damp still from the rain. Then it hits.
The numbing of the face. Alert number one. tingling of the hands. 2nd warning. Dizziness coupled with breathlessness. the last of the warnings. Got inside and told Al things where not right, something is wrong. Sitting down the head feels so heavy it has to be put on the floor. Pressure increased around my head and at the temples. Eyes had blurred vision. Speech good but laboured. This has happened a number of times before and always the same. Most times in happens in bed. safe place. This is a consequence that comes from being ignorant of my health for so many years thinking other things and doing stupid things.

Now I have a a growth on the face again. and on the back that needs seeing to. The doc I went to see said that waiting for my regular doc who is back on the 26th august 2014 would be better for she is a surgeon. Yeah true enough.

The world is going nuts ay. so many people are dying for no reasons. Christians in Iraq in the city of Mosul are being treated very badly and are running. Some have been killed in the most horrible ways. Saw photos of a page on facebook. Really sick ay. Once during a bible study in Qld so very long ago an exbrother inlaw told us that he believed all this would happen in our generation. Boy was he wrong. There was a protest in me at the time and I so wanted to say something about it. I didn't say a thing.

Sad ay.
Just touching on excommunication. 
Excommunication is an institutional act of religious censure used to deprive, suspend, or limit membership in a religious community or (as in the present discipline of the Catholic Church) to restrict certain rights within it, such as the reception to Holy Communion. Some Protestants use the term disfellowship instead.
The word excommunication means putting a specific individual or group out of communion. In some religions, excommunication includes spiritual condemnation of the member or group. Excommunication may involve banishment, shunning, and shaming, depending on the religion, the offense that caused excommunication, or the rules or norms of the religious community. The grave act is often remedied by sincere penance, public recantation, sometimes through the Sacrament of Confession, piety, and/or through mortification of the flesh.

That's what the Camira Brethren Church did to me. My crime was having sex with one of the elders sons and getting pregnant. They stated that I knew better. Well yes but so did he. He just got a telling off. Even when I was allowed to come back it wasn't the same and I didn't feel the same about any of them and still don't. I was alone. No family, no friends. 19 and not with it. Maybe I should forgive them. yeah I will have to do that. Banishment, shunning shaming, of a 19 year old young woman who didn't know what was going on with people who where trusted and loved. I was a lost person in a place I really had no business being. The learning curve was huge and damaging in everyway. Fornication. The loneliness I felt before then was finally going away. I didn't think it would of been looked at with so much ugliness. The shame that I was made to feel was overwhelming. Everything in my life that I like loved and was blessed with was taken away from me at one time or another and that was just another one of those times. I should of run further away. I should of left and found a place to live without the hippocrits that was the Camira berthern church. When I look back at it all today I see that lameness in the people. I have not return to them since and will never allow them in as far as I had let them back then. Forgiven they are. But now they are only members of Gods family. My eye's are open.
It's silly but I didn't ever feel a part of them again after that. even after I was allowed back in the fold... Never felt a part of the Morrison family either, even with having 2 children to Brian it was never the same. The marriage we had was a farce. Nothing that was happening then was permanent. Everything had a ending feel to it and yes it did all end. Badly with my leaving the state. not in 25 years have I returned. Says something about the way I felt about it doesn't it. Do I wish to speak to any of them again. well that would depend on them. Would they care to speak with me. Very much doubt that. I am not the same as I was then and I am not the same as when I left.
In Matthew 18:15-17 Jesus says that an offended person should first draw the offender's fault to the offender's attention privately; then, if the offender refuses to listen, bring one or two others, that there may be more than a single witness to the charge; next, if the offender still refuses to listen, bring the matter before the church, and if the offender refuses to listen to the church, treat the offender as "a Gentile and a tax collector".
1 Corinthians 5:1-8 directs the church at Corinth to excommunicate a man for sexual immorality (incest). In 2 Corinthians 2:5-11, the man, having repented and suffered the "punishment by the majority" is restored to the church. Fornication is not the only ground for excommunication, according to the apostle: in 5:11, Paul says, "I am writing to you not to associate with anyone who bears the name of brother if he is guilty of sexual immorality or greed, or is an idolater, reviler, drunkard, or swindler - not even to eat with such a one."
In Romans 16:17, Paul writes to "mark those who cause divisions contrary to the doctrine which ye have learned and avoid them." Also, in 2 John 1:10-11, the writer advises believers that "whosoever transgresseth, and abideth not in the doctrine of Christ, hath not God. He that abideth in the doctrine of Christ, he hath both the Father and the Son. If there come any unto you, and bring not this doctrine, receive him not into your house [οἰκίαν, residence or abode, or "inmates of the house" (family)], neither bid him God speed: for he that biddeth him God speed is partaker of his evil deeds."

Indeed Open your eye's

Where to begin.No malice intended no inviting to riot

I can't quite begin to understand what on earth is going on in the minds of the Russian rebels in the Ukraine. Why did they have to shoot down what was clearly a passenger plane. The tech they have would have been enough to find out if the plane was friend or foe. Looks to me that they wanted to pull in other countries into the game. Oh yes it is a game. A deadly one. Putin and his people have been itching for some sort of major confrontation to back for a while now. Look at the way they have raced to make their presents known in quite a number of areas where they have no business being there, such as the Middle East for one drama filled situation. 

It is clearly going to be a marked point in our long history of wars, police actions and violent take over’s this world has seen. Just like the particular events of the past that brought WW1 and WW2. World war 3 could this be the start of it. We have seen so many people try to get it going for a number of years now. Just a little look into the information available to us on the net and off it will be enough to show anyone who would listen that the pattern of bring the world into a start of war again is being followed.  Then when we think we have peace, ka boom. The earth will be unforgiving. The sky will send a huge rock and the world will be in darkness blotted out and true suffering will begin. The sun will shine again but it won’t be nice.

Isn’t it time to stop all this war and nonsense, to accept each other the way we are and not to push the people into things they don’t want? We all have been blessed with the awesome gift of free will.

This brings me to my children Selena and Chris. Two of the most awesome kids I know, I do have Joe too and he is in the same boat as my other 2 and I have 3 step children who have a place in there too, although they do have their own lives and all do forget my birthday and mother’s day but I guess that is part of what I put out because I don’t do it for my mother so now that is admitted I will have to change that to doing a better job at being a daughter.

Selena and Chris have taught me so much in my life. Thanks to them I had to look into myself and see to the hate and anger I had hidden deep into for too many years to tell. Although I will tell later on. Much later on.  If I hadn’t I would of driven my family to the depths of despair and then pushed them into their living hell. Relentlessly pushing, driving and cause emotional anguish until they died.

I do have to mention that God has had a profound influence in my life since I was very very young.  Finally getting to know more about him in my late teens, going totally stupid until my late 30’s and going through the throws of learning more and having a closer relationship with God through Jesus now at 53. Today I feel much more at ease with what has happened throughout the years and have let go of much, no let go of all but that which is revealed to me and take care of it the moment it is put in my head. That is called cleaning out the rubbish, well for me it’s just that.

Forgiving is the hardest thing anyone can do. Much easier said than done but once it is, the relief is forever and complete. It’s just the art of letting go that takes a toll. Really, no amount of medication, even with consul is going to do anything unless you are willing to forgive yourself and are willing to do the work needed to move on and deal with the rest of your life.

Wow what a crazy week ay. So many people are suffering and there really is nothing we can do to stop it. No matter how had we try nothing is going to happen to our satisfaction. Sadly this is just going to have to run it's course. I am truly gob smacked by the actions of the Russian rebels in the Ukraine. What are they thinking hey. They are acting like they have rights to the bodies and belongings of the dead. It seems that they are in the mind frame that the plane is a causality of war and the "spoils " are theirs to do with as they please. Doesn't fair well for them in this modern day nor does it makes us think better of Russia's govt. What a mad sad event. 
I think that we are coming into a high point of violence with extremes being the in word. Truly there is no excuse for this type of behaviour.  Sadly we see the very same attitudes in our country as well. No longer are we safe in our houses, streets or shops. Children, the elderly, young men and women, people going about their day are all subject to the all too easy mind snap that leads to hurtful drama.  Not a day goes by that we don't see the pain and anguish in those who need it the least. Rage is the buzz around the world. We really got to try more to be kinder to each other. Cool the blood. THINK about the after effects on others. Be accountable for all that we do, say and write. 

On a totally different note we have to consider the prophesies. On youtube I watch a channel called 9nania. Takes a bit to get into at first but once you start to match up what she is saying and look into the research your self you begin to see how close we are to the rapture. A top event in any born again persons life. That is spiritual ay, not like one of those goofy new wave ritual rebirths. Man when I saw one doco that actually showed someone going through some sort of physical "rebirth" I nearly fell off my chair laughing. It was during a time where everyone was looking for something to change themselves and a need to start again. Wow, I reckon LSD was in the mix somewhere in that doco ay. Totally off their faces and open to suggestion to the max. It is so easy to manipulate someones mind into doing anything with enough drugs. Same with a child but we won't go there today.
All the other times we have had great knowledgeable people, church kooks and those who though they had second sight talk about the end of the world etc etc etc in the past have all failed and have disappeared into the ground or have return to normal (!! yeah ok their normal)    To be honest I haven't really got into the "end of the world thing" before and I'm not into it now. It's going to be quite some time before the sun ( our star) will reach the end of it's life. I do however get right into what the bible says is on it's way. Yes and I quote        " Something wicked this way comes.." Many say that it is just natural events that have happen before. Yep that is true. Why though? Why do these thing happen? What is behind it? The proof is out there for you if you have a mind to rummage through all the writings from many cultures and many places by people who have different ways of communicating their thoughts across to the general population. Yes it is a great idea to do it all for your self too. Alas time waits for no one. ( Catchy saying that. ) Either way most end up knowing that the time is near for the coming of Jesus to take his people to a safe place while he and God allow the devil his due. It has to happen. It's been fore told over and over by so many and heard by so few.
It isn't rocket science ay. ( I've always wanted to write that )  For anyone to be taken by Jesus to a safe home is easy and forever. Of course you change your way after but not to the extent many believe. You are compelled too. Not by force either. It doesn't work that way. All God wants for us to do is to accept what his son did for us so the we could have open line to him. The Jewish nation didn't accept this. They wanted to have more control I guess. I'm not priest nor a scholar so I am not in a possy to chat it up about that. Yeah it isn't a easy life for many in countries that have no tolerance for anyone different in their thinking or don't believe that which they do. Sad but true. And yes I do know of how there are many who like to scoff and make fun of people who believe in God. Their lose ay. So in this time of  shake down events with wars and rumour of wars, the ground beneath us about to do spectacular movements and the coming threats of huge meteors/ asteroids hits one really has to consider weather we are right with our maker. Oh and here's something, when it is all quite and the world is at peace you better look up and see what coming. Aw man 2:17 am. slap on my head and rolling my eye's.
 

interesting truth.

I know it's a preaching channel but it's the truth ay.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kMzPj649aeo.

Hey I've been back tracking this Mexican Border issue and have come up with a radical thing Guatemala, Nicaragua, Managua, Costa Rica, Panama, Colombia Ecuador and Venezuela are all in a very watery zoned part of the world. North and South America are the only places high enough to to be safe. 
Looking at the world data on rising sea levels and the predictions of ground move from vulcanises monitoring the area for years and have studied the data for years know have a volcano is going the blow, they know the signd very well. Couple this with the earthquake researchers findings and maybe some one has listened, well many, and are now moving with this in mind and maybe according to what the scientists have found have briefed the people and they are going with what ever they have knowing that they do not have time to be complaisant because they know what it is like when shit hits the fan. Thus the Govt's of said countries have made deals with Usa and the inner countries of south America to avoid the coming water event, coupled with the ground going crazy underneath them and volcano's going for broke. Hmm this then puts eye's towards Yellowstone National Park. The action over there really isn't something to bring children to neither but which do you choose. Which can you cope with.  I'm looking at this from a straight up view with honesty. Also when you believe what the bible teaches you do tend to take notice of what scientists say for they correspond. 
http://edition.cnn.com/2013/08/01/us/yellowstone-geyser/
http://www.wbtw.com/story/25989779/hot-spot-yellowstone-road-melts-sites-closed
http://www.bbc.com/news/science-environment-25598050
Many more Ref, online just look it up.
 https://maps.google.com/maps/ms?ie=UTF8&t=m&source=embed&oe=UTF8&msa=0&msid=200648231617316941382.0004ebdf2e6b9b741a573&dg=feature just to give a another look at the lay of the land. Keep this site handy to help you with my next subject/

Then there is the Middle East shake downs.  Headline reads:

Israeli Ground War Near As 100,000 Civilians Advised To Flee.

http://edition.cnn.com/2014/07/11/world/meast/mideast-tensions/

This one says much. I would recommend watching this one.: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCEy1lbLSjA

http://www.cbsnews.com/videos/eye-opener-violence-between-israel-and-hamas-forces-spreads/

Crazy shit going down here. Also told in the bible. Everything that is happening now in this area is history in the making. So many refs in the bible about this one in Revelations but it's best to get a preacher who is into that book to explain it to you better.  

 

On our front... I like what Clive Palmer is up to. I watching this fella. and the people he has set onto the parliament floor. YYEEAH BABY.

Keeping watch. It's looking like we have a fight looming up here. Better start getting gardens ready with food plants and shelter from the coming blast from the sun in summer.

 

Wow there is something biblical going on in the world isn't there. 
Israel is under attack, again and are fighting back again. There is war and rumours of war with all sorts of people, in and around the middle eastern area. 442 missiles in only a couple of hours. Hamas is being bombed. Gaza is being bombed. 
Isis, is going nut and those men are merciless. Vicious in every way and killing innocents young and old who won't bow to them.  Yemen has been captured by them and they are going for Mosul in Iraq. These people where also for told in the bible too. The Sunni rebels are massing again. Need the watch.

Mean while in America, things are getting out of hand in the environment as well as the government. The borders between the USA and Mexico is more or less gone. With the Govt wanting to reclassify legal immigrants as refuges which isn't going down with the population of USA. 

Oh and now the English are now skittish about their Internet.

Storms that that wipe out towns and cities. Earthquakes in place that hasn't had a hint of them in millions of years. Sink holes are appearing in many places with no mining histories in the area. Volcanoes are also getting ready to blow or have done. The "ring of Fire" has not been this active during human history. 

See what I believe is that everything that is happening now has been told to us through the bible many times over and it warns us, saying that when we see these things happening that Jesus is coming back to collect all those who believe in him and have accepted him as their saviour, so that we don't have to go through what is about to fall upon this planet of ours. Am I preaching? MMM good question. Most times I like to think that I'm just telling it like it is. Which has been my way for a long long time now. Why I believe in God is a story and a half. I have always had some sort of thing with God. since little but it really came to a huge kapow in my head when I was told I had Bipolar. That wasn't until I was 38. All my life I had felt different to anyone around me. That's a symptom, well one of them. Once I did I had to get it seen to. Took a long long time and many medications that have damaged my body beyond repair. I just think that it is important for everyone to look at who they are and to ensure that you are right with God. 
Listening to the news and watching videos. looking up stories to make sure it's truth among other things have been something that has made me more aware of what is going on out there. It's getting outrageous. Too many people are suffering from avoidable issues. Crime weather it be violent or soft is so not acceptable. We know that it will only get worse. I just hope that we are all prepare for what ever comes upon us as things unfold before our very eyes. To quote  Pastor Paul Begley Are you serious, wwhhhaatttt!!! Something BIBLICAL is going on.
 

Ok, this is my first go at doing a blog. Al has been telling me about this type of thing for awhile and today I have been moved to do it. At long last. So the thing I want to get across to anyone who reads this is that you are going to read that which bothers me most. Inspires me to create crafts and works of art and the oh so Marcy opinions that will cause remarks or funny sounds that the mouth can make went the mind had read something and all you can do is make a silly sound. Above all these are my words and mine alone and I will accept any remarks with grace and answer back with respect. I don't like swearing at the best of times so lay off it ok. Lets keep this easy. 

Today is the 2/07/2014. Started off with a slow coming into the awake world. Hearing the rain and loving the feel of my bed and the warmth. Not wanting to get up as usual ha. Since getting off the hard anti psychotic drugs a couple of years ago it has been a slow getting use to the emotions and rage again. Controlling the way my reactions spill from the mouth. I no longer feel guilt when waking up late in the day. Use to grill myself into a moody rat bag, not recommended when you have little ones to care for. I don't now of course thank you God that they have grown. I still have guilt about the way it all was way back when. I don't stress over it but like I use to. Just keep moving into the day and see what I have to do and hope the mind doesn't convince the body it's all too hard.. huge grin. 

So Joe says not to push him cause known it is what he's like when he is pushed. MM the mind says, over it off I go. Pay my rego, raining, thinking of Joe and go to pick him up, bloody soft ay. Anyway I see him on the corner of our street and pick him up cutting off a person coming to the intersection. They did have lots of room but cause the view was quite clear. Joe jumps in and I hear a thanks Mum. mmm chuffed. Take him to his appointment with the dreaded Max employment. What a laugh. so while there I sit inside the CRC and play with my ipad. Then the big ears hear a tourist/backpacker try to book a bus to Perth. Not a easy thing around 12ish in Gingin. In fact it would be one of those right time things. Looking over at the fellow I see that one of his legs has no hair on the bottom part of his lower left leg. Asked him what the deal was and he said he hurt his ankle during a soccer game and strapped it up. When he removed the tape much hair came with it. so he shaved it all off. Told him he could of shave the other leg to match and send a pic back home to how how much he had fitted in with Aussie culture and the mad way most Aussie do for a laugh. After a little more joking and having a laugh at his expense he wasn't getting anywhere fast with booking the bus and had to wait at the bus stop with the right money to get to Perth. Early on in the day I had read a passage in the bible about entertaining strangers for some have been with angels without knowing. While playing with my ipad again it came to me that I ought to give these guys a lift to Midland as Joe/ myself where going there anyway and it wasn't a huge detour at all. So I offered and they accepted, Tim the German and Alex the Italian ( he sounded just like Valentino Rossi so it was fun. Brought them chips from Steve's gull and off went to Midland. Joe was happy and we had lively chat and good giggles all the way in. Gave them warning about the mossy germs going around up north and telling them to keep an eye on their stuff. You know all the things you tell people to watch out for so they have a good time without loss. Signed the Aussie flag Alex had and off to do our thing. Awesome. 

After being pushed to hurry by Joe which he denies then puts his arm around me to help me keep pace with him!!!! We get things done and after more hooning around we get petrol and go home. Totally worn out I sit down to a little food and my friend rings. It's about a meeting about that Patrick Comeagain fellow, a serial rapists released into our area even though many did not want him out the govt. let him out. He raped a nine year old lass and 40 other people including 2 males and only served time for 2. Even his shrink didn't think he should be out. so I put this out on facebook ::

 Huge important  Bindoon, Gingin, surrounds.
The meeting about Patrick Comeagain has been changed to the Chinkabee Complex at the same time of 7.oopm Please inform all you can this change has been in the last hour.... I sent it to all the tv stations and everyone I could to get it out there. Spent 3 hours getting it into facebook pages that I knew had kids and a wide friends circle. Pushed out as far as I could. Even invited someone who suggested he would take care of it, if you know what I mean. I feel awful about that now. I am sorry I did that. Nothing much I can do about that now. I'll have to pray about that. All this just means things are getting quite hairy out there for good people. It's getting hard to ignore the goings on in our state. The govt isn't doing the work the people voted them in for and all we are getting is more problems and less solutions that work for the greater good. There are too many strings left untied to allow this to go on any further without conditions that infringe on our rights to have a safe place to live in. Too many bad people are being let off too soon with stupid conditions that can be got around  to easily. There is a boot camp in the out back that these type ought to be sent to. Not here 500 mts from a road that local buses use as pick up and drop off points for school kids. We have a hard enough time keeping watch over our kids as it is without more hazards. It's all going mad man. Just all going mad. The time has come to allow normal people with good healthy ideas to deal with the prison system and let the prison be what they are suppose to be. Places of correction.  Too much is given to the those who are in prison than to those who they have hurt. That will have to change. I don't see that happening though. What I know is that it will only become worse. Sad but true. God is coming. Jesus is on his way. woe to those who are not ready. 12.00 am 3/07/2014, a new day begins.