Look I jumped up and did what had to be done to get Jess past a rough bad mental stuff up, texting Joe and making him worry needlessly, upsetting Bec. Not being up front and asking for help. Lying and what comes with that. So called concerned friends but not too much to talk to us. Having us put ourselves out in the thick of it to find out what we have now  etc.....
Being told by Al that he wasn't going to second guess the actions taken only to be told that it was a mistake!!!!!!!  
Graham saying things we ought to have known years ago......


Really ... and now everyone has to tip toe around her again.
COME ON>>>...

I may come across all smiles and nice but I have had enough with bloody drugs and piss weak actions.

Let it be known I am far from impressed.





I am so angry right now.
It might be the bipolar happening here but I think maybe no.
After years of asking Al to read up on bipolar to help him understand me so he can be better able to handle it when it rears up........ no he just hasn't thought it important enough and time after time he has muffed it with me. However because I am truly in love with him I have not pushed it. Only ever just asked. I know he too has suffered from depression from time to time and he has his hands full with that so I let it go.
NOW Jess is in need and he is looking up everything he can to understand her dilemma and not being able to get to grips with her mental pain. Even trying to understand the drugs she takes and what happens to her when she is flying off her tree. Would of been nice to of had that same reaction for me and mine.
Pity he didn't show as much when I had to deal with Selena and Chris. I had to deal with My bipolar myself and no one was there for me to hang on to. I had to get a grip and see to it and did.
I only had God. Even with all that I still got other things seen to.


Well he now is going to see just how life will change now that we know more about Jess. He is going to have his hands full, his mind full and everything he has is going to be taken up by Jess and her needs.

Very soon he will have to choose, well actually he already has shown who comes before all. Always the last on his list and well I will have to just move on once Jess is seen to and all is going well for her.
Over it all thanks.